On this day, one year ago, my entire life was flipped right-side-up. I was in the middle of leaving behind a tumultuous relationship and diving head first into something new. It was a rocky road, this first year, but I'm too excited to be where we are today. One thing I've learned about relationships is that common interests are important. I always told myself I was stupid for hating almost everything about my ex, except that we both loved to get drunk and high very frequently. I thought there was something wrong with me and just accepted the things that drove me crazy because I thought it was love. We were convenient for each other. We stayed together for so long because we were all each other had. But he was always yelling at me, and I was always unhappy. Now that I've sobered up and grown over the last year, I've realized so much about us. We were never meant to make it. We're too different. And I hope that wherever he is now, he's taking care of himself and looking for someone who has more in common with him when he's sober, and will treat him right.
Cody is amazing. He makes me laugh every single day. I get to be myself and laugh at silly things. I get home from work and drinking alcohol is not the first thing on my mind. In fact, I very rarely drink. My favorite thing about him are his eyes. They're dark brown and deep. I can't begin to explain how excited he makes me. Literally every single day I feel blessed just to have dinner with him, watch tv, and go to sleep. I could go into detail about all our little quirks and the things that melt my heart, but then they wouldn't be special anymore. All I know is I'm happy just being here. We argue and bicker at each other but we both mean well. We're really always on the same page. There are tons more things that we have to fix about ourselves, but just this past year, we have both climbed some large mountains. And I know we couldn't have done it without each other.
As far as working out goes, I think our pillow fight before bedtime should suffice as a good arm exercise.
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