Meditation.

So I kept my promise and did some yoga today. Bur before I even start my Pilates, I just had to post this realization that I had while I was meditating. The DVD told me to relax and listen to myself breathe for 2 to 5 minutes I use that time to pray. I have complete faith that God will give me everything I need because He's always done so when I truly let him into my life. The thing is though, I forget to be grateful for what I do have. I was asking God to show me what house He wanted us to have which is partly the correct way to ask. However the way I worded it was to start off by saying that I'm miserable in our apartment now. What I realized is that if I want God to bless me and show me things I need to accept what I already have been given. I can't just speak ill of my blessings now when I could be so much worse off. It may not seem like it is but it is a form of being ungrateful when I don't thank God for giving me this small apartment. One day in the future I will look back on this apartment and feel like I've overcome obstacles and tribulations. If I can't look at my life now as a blessing, in the future I will never appreciate what I currently have, or what I came from. It is a difficult thing to do to give your entire life up to God but He's in control. What He wants to happen will happen whether you like it or not so you might as well just give him control now. One of my posts from last month was about how I was trying to do everything on my own without trusting in God. When I finally told God, out loud on 28th Street, like a crazy person, "Please show me the way, show me what you want me to do. You know I need a car. Which one do you want me to have?" You have to go back and read the post titled Brad Paisley in order to get the full story, but I knew God was talking to me that day. So from now until next week or next month or even next year I'm going to appreciate this apartment. God put me here with someone who loves me and helps me when I need it. He gave me a home and I need to recognize it before I take it for granted. When the time is right and when He feels we're ready to have a house, He'll push us in that direction and it will be such a flawless move that I'll know its Him.